dee, you dont need to change yourself in order for others to be friends with you. Dont be an idiot and change your everything just to fit in school. THATS PLAIN IDIOCY. (even is there's such a word.) if they don't like you for who you are, then please like.. FORGET IT! you dont deserve ppl like them.





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saw JOAKIM GOMEZ at bishan? big deal. i think the "LUNCH" with PAUL TWOHILL was WAYYYYYYY BETTER! haha.

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nvr went to s&w.


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holidays are coming.
There's the good thing and the bad thing.

the good thing
can wake up later (durh!~)
gain the weight lost.
TV.
facial.
pamper myself more.
go out with him, her, them and they.
catch up with beauty sleep.
rollerblade.
SHOPPING!
going overseas?
MOVIES.
VIVO.
got time to bake, cook and anything thats got to do with kitchen and fire.
spent the whole day glued to the com? I do sound like a com geek huh? thats not me.


the bad thing
pay back the days I didnt fast.
mum will nag to study science (re-take but nvr, ever study. Idk whats the use also.)
mum's nag!
mum's pms. means more nagging and finding faults with me.
thinks of reasons how I ended up here.
houSehold chores?
no $ to go out sometimes?(so common for holiday time.)



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so FREAKING lethargic with the eye bags so heavy. and whatnot.


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if I go out with family for events like weddings and stuff..and cousin starts asking, so where are u schooling now? and I will say, oh.. im now at Bishan ITE... and suddenly mum interrupts "she's taking accounting!" (coz she thinks ACCOUNTINGS soooooooo great. and she took accountings b4.. and she works as an auditor and stuff.. blahblahblah! and i noe its a course that other ppl are like DYING to get in. WHATEVER..)

ITE isn't ENTIRELY BAD ok? And she keeps saying this, " DO YOU KNOW THAT PPL ARE LOOKING DOWN ON YOU now that you are at ITE?" is making me feel sooooooooo bad. these words have been drumming in my coconut for quite sometime already. NOTHING I DO CAN EVER MAKE HER PROUD. as Im typing this, you guess how Im feeling now.. she keep telling me not to look down on myself. you think by saying this to me will make me feel any better. i'm utterly dissapointed with her. I dont care what other ppl say abt me, but even if my own mum wants to like.. look down on me.. idk what kinda mum she is, not supporting me.


IM SOOO EMO NOW?
tears flowing.~
thanks SYNYSTERALIFGATES for consoling me. you are a friend indeed.because we are on the same boat I guess. much appreciated. I guess my mum was really that upset huh?.

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treat me like the way you want to treat my-kind-of- species. I may be different. like it or hate it, He has made me this way. And I appreciate that. you should too. Cause its the ppl like me that makes the world go round.

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